Main Agenda For The WEEK is to...

Get some pussy!
Yes I said it. I'm gomma get some this week!

like on some ASAP shit
And yes my concience is gonna be fucked up because I will be cheating.
But hey this is my own seperate needs.
So I guess it's okay.

You know what the funniest part about this is...?
She's white LOl
yes I know.
And if you know me. You know that I don't really like them like that. But this one... Is reall nice =D

Im OD Super Excited (OMG!)

Help ME Understand

Wassup with pornos with two chicks having sex with a dilldo
then they wanna give the Dilldo head like bitch it's plastic/foam/NOT real!!
(at this point I'm NOT turned on anymore)

Help me understand what's the purpose of sucking it???




-I tagged random ppl
so just comment


(and ikno! im not the only one that looks at porn... So dnt be like eww n shit so Be real n comment)

Piercing's I want to get

-Belly Botton
&
-Nipples
- hey ppl that does not mean that imma be on girls gone wild showing everyone my boobs.

Omg What the Fuck....

Omg what the fuck is wrong with me. Like really I’m fucking
up. It’s already bad enough that my boyfriend is younger than me. So our
thinking level is one notch different. And my ass started thinking and talking
about how our relationship is going. This guy is all like great :D! (Then he
states his reasons..)

After that he starts’ asking me about if you have a crush
on someone is it cheating. And of course I’m like no its not. (cuz I know my
damn self has crushes on many girls)

Then of course I’m like why do you ask? He’s like he thinks
this white girl (OMG!!


[A1] Not
again) is interesting.

I’m like okay…

Then he’s like you got to meet her. {Just adding on: And he
says this like imam going to find her attractive like wtf no… well maybe idk…?}
(I’m my mind I’m like hellz NO might have to kill the bitch) So I’m like yeah
sure… ( :-/ mhm why not…?)

Then the conversation went on to different subjects

Blah

Blah

Blah… and so on….

Then he says “I don’t like thinking about how’s a
relationship is going because it stays in my head too much and then it just does
not go right.”

(Oh My Fucking Jesus) If I would have just talked about
this with one of my best friends preferably Deron (3^rd on myspace
top) I wouldn’t have this fucking guy thinking about the worst of situations
between me and him.

I’m such an Idiot. I swear I always fucking do something
wrong to cause a trickle of catastrophe in relationships.

Well now all I can do is CONTINUE to pray for a stronger
relationship between me and him (like I do EVERYDAY) because he actually means
the mundo to me! (Despite my wondering eye). ß
That’s a family curse – wondering eye!

Next time I think about shit with me and him imam just keep
my emotions to myself (even though that shit kills me) It’s for the bettering of
our relationship…. What do you think?

---

[A1]So
this guy is stuck on this girl he went out with for a long ass time before
me. So he has a thing for white girls… (He just need to stay with Blacks
or Hispanics in my opinion preferably ME!)

Me complaining...

I really don't like it when someone is attracted to me and they are not attractive no better word not cute. Don't get me wrong... Im still going to be nice to the person b/c thats just how I am. But i don't like it when ppl come up to me and they know that they are not cute and i mean they know they not it's self evident and they still trinna talk to me. Yes, I am bothered. They wont know that. But they might just take the hint when I'm NOT trinna flirt with the person...

(yes this did happen to me today)

This MutherFucker...Ughhh! (Frustration to the MAX)

My day started off AWESOME I had plans to meet up with friends do some stuff... Because we had a HALF DAY! (woo-woo).
Well when I came home that didn't work out as planed. But it was okay because I asked my boyfriend to came over and he did (YAY!).
So we chilled and do what we usually do... Then he left and I was feeling good as hell. Then I decided I wanted to do chores n homework and all that other good stuff. Again I was really really really HAPPY.

Then the phone rings. It was my dads girlfriend... I mean she called like all day like at least 3x. Bt I didn't want to answer because I didn't want her asking me 50,000,000 questions about what why we had a half day.
So i answered the phone. This bitch (yes i had to say it) is all like you need to go send out those job applications and stop sleeping all day. (She thinks she knows things about me btw) And I said Sherry Im not sleeping all day and I'm waiting on my recommendations so I can get the jobs I applied for (irked at this moment). Then this bitch is trinna tell ME!!!! that I don't need recommendations. Then I'm like look... I really want these jobs soo... I am getting recommendations so I can be even more qualified for the positions. Then she's all like well you need to get them by friday because they been laying around for a while (got these applications last weekend btw weekends are my free time btw and I have no transportation until the weekend) Oh another thing. Then this BITCH is like oh and you need to clean the kitchen. Im like I already did it and I can't rush people to give me stuff and they are busy themselves; So when ever they give me MY RECOMMENDATIONS thats when I will get them. Bye (phone is hung up)

Then im really mad cuz she trinna act like she got half of her DNA in me but she DOES NOT she is the GIRLFRIEND (so get off my shit)
And another thing Im getting a JOB because I WANT TO!
not because I HAVE TO
I have no responsibilities like :
KIDs...
CAR NOTE...
INSURANCE...
TUITION...
BILLS...

I am still a MINOR untill a year from now

So don't be trinna HARASS ME to get a fucking JOB again this BITCH is NOT MY MOTHER! and has NO DNA of MINE we ARE NOT RELATED! (so why she think she has the RIGHT to tell me wtf to do...?)

Another thing Im getting a job because I WANT ONE. NOT BECAUSE I HAVE TO!

(i don't even ask her for ANYthing! Again she is NOT MY MOTHER NOR GUARDIAN NOR ANY RELATION TO MEEE! )

And another thing we are in a Recession and they ALREADY told me that they had ALOT of applicants so... I MIGHT NOT EVEN GET THE DAMN JOB! (shit I'm really STRESSED the fuck out)

Im addicted to sex...

I've just figured this out. Monthly I have to get some of something at least 9x. And if I don't I will fantasize about every person I want to have sex with in various ways. Omg just me thinking about it makes me want it even more. Well lemme stop typing before things get hot n heavy....

:D
(I'm innocent)

This Really Annoys me!

My first big move was to North Carolina when I was just
starting high school. Leaving my friends behind I had to find new acquaintances
to hang with during school hours at Apex high. Then as the year went on problems
just had to stir up, leaving my external family in dysfunction. So I went on to
continue my wonderful life on to Raleigh, NC which at first was a bit rocky but
then began to smooth out little by little when I began to attend Millbrook high
school. There I met some crazy ass chicks that didn’t work out as girl friends.
However some how I lead my way to meet a guy named Josh from Cali. He was(is)
soo chill, calm, quite, smart, played(s) soccer, and Mexican/black mixed which
is pretty much all of what I like. So as months went on to weeks and our
friendship grew more into a more relationship we started to call ourselves a
couple. During this relationship we have had been through lots of things
together trust, breakups, getting back together, sex, minor drama basically all
of the things you could ever go through in a long term relationship. Now that
Josh and I are still doing well I don’t need another freaking “something” to
come along and screw up my plans for a stable normal high school life (LMAO! YES
I was pissed off in that sentence). But as always nothing goes as planed for me,
today I got in the mail a Re-Assignment Letter saying that next year I will NOT
be going to Millbrook, and for my graduating year 2010 I will be going to
WAKEFEILD. It seems to be everyone else in my
neighborhood as well. I mean my boyfriend lives in my neighborhood but like down
the street. He might have got re assigned to another school. I just want to be
where ever he is. It’s going to be hard to go out with a person that does not go
to your school but y’all still date. And I NEED my daily KISSES! (<that’s what
I’m really concerned about)

 On another point I’m a fucking Junior! I can’t call
WAKEFEILD MY SCHOOL because it’s NOT! Quiet frankly I can’t call any of
the schools I’ve been too in NC MY SCHOOL because I haven’t stuck around long
enough to enjoy that label. All I want is to have Wake County Leave my School
just the way it is. (So I can enjoy my baby each and everyday besides him coming
to my house [–Besos a Joshito.- Imma miss him if he’s not where I’m am]) Even
though Millbrook is:

COLD (and still have the a/c on) ,

MUDDY (when you are walking to the
PODS/Trailers outside),

And has:

LAME ass ADMENISTRATORS that make up stupid rules (like no
hats, bandanas, beads b/c it might be gang related)

Teachers that are on some type of CRACK! (Basically some
teachers need to ask themselves would they even do the homework/projects they
assign students)

 

 

'Call Me When You Get This 5:05 Corinne Baley Rae Corinne
Baley Rae R&B/Soul 8 2/5/2009 6:00 AM

'Call Me When You Get This 5:05 Corinne Baley Rae Corinne Baley Rae R&B/Soul 8
2/5/2009 6:00 AM

 

 

Oh and DO NOT!! GET ME STARTED ON THE SENIOR PROJECT!!!
BULLSHIT

OMG COME ON!!  IM JUST TRING TO GRADUATE!! OMG. Its already
hard as it is to get in a damn collage

In the Moment

I love my dad
i mean he's such a good guy (tht has wrong female choses)
but over all im glad he is my dad (even though he can be a big asshole :D)

Closing!

 

Lust is something that can test your relationship to the
MAX but if you ignore it things will be far
better in the end. Also I have learned that.

-        
Lesson Learned :D

Not sure what to tittle this...

Oooooh My God it’s nothing like a girls
MOAN! Especially if you
like her…

Between lust

Between lust
vs. what
I have

 

I have a hard decision to make

I haven’t acted on the cheating part
(yet) but I mean (aghhh)
maybe it wouldn’t be soo hard if I wasn’t horny all the damn time when
I’m around her. I do actually try to avoid her as much as possible. We
know the same people so it’s kind of hard to avoid my friends. When my
friends are not the problem it’s kind of her… Being in the
“circle” of friends that I hang with.

I’m really not trying to cheat on my
boyfriend it’s just that my body/mind desires her and I can’t help that… I just
can’t.

 

2nd Part to bad grades

2^nd Part to bad grades

 

My Report Card wasn’t bad as I thought it was. Actually I
did a little bit better (just a lil bit though).
After I showed him the news he acknowledged (he basicly slayed the hell outta me)that I’m not going to a four year
university because my grades show that I’ am not. I guess I’m cool with that but
I mean that does not mean that I am not going to amount to anything it just
means that I’m not going to a university. (I’m going to
Community Collage as well) But I will tell you that I’m going to the
military because I actually want too! Not because I have nothing else to do
(I do have other options). This is because I want
to keep that tradition going. The military helps you be determine in what ever
your goals may be also you get a phat ass check after all your hard work for
serving your country. Plus I will be proud of accomplishing that.
In the long run my dad said he was proud of me for having a plan for my future.(Instead of being a bum, Which is SOO not me!)

Don’t let others choke your dreams or hold you back

Don’t let others choke your dreams or hold you back

I’m making a video blog about this topic because not too long ago I was having a conversation with my boy friend about what I want to do after high school and what he was going to do. Anyways (not to cause confusion or conflict with my boy friend); I stated that I wanted to go to the Navy. He said that he didn’t want me to go to the military; because he can’t be away from me for along time and he was afraid of me finding someone better than him and so on and so on.

I’m over here trying to tell him we would still be together and all that good stuff. But in my mind I’m just like damn nicca… Shit I don’t need someone holding me back from doing the things I want to do.

I certainly wouldn’t do that to him. If I was that worried I would try to go to myself. (We will see how this works out in the future)

Even when it comes to relationships, family, or friends don’t let them hold you back you do you and follow your heart!

(I'm going to youtube this)

You tell me if I should feel the slightest negative emotion to this...

You tell me if I should feel the slightest negative emotion
to this…

 

So my blood sister found me on Myspace this summer, and I
am happy she did!

And my father and her are developing a beautiful
relationship which I think all fathers/parents should do with there children
even if you don’t know them personality wise or haven’t seen them. It’s just the
fact you the parent/father knowing that you help make something come into this
world that is part of you. Now getting to the real point of this blog my
biological mother not trying to slay her in anyway I’m just saying/wondering do
you have the desire of knowing me? Like how my father is getting to know my
sister your daughter. Do you want anything to do with me? I mean shit. This is
actually hurting me emotionally and I’m a pretty strong person inside n out.
It’s just the fact of you know my number, you know my AIM IM, and you can damn
sure ask my sister how to contact me in other ways such as Myspace & Facebook.
Like damn you have every place where I’m at 99% of the time. So what is the
problem? Why haven’t you taken your time out to chat with me or at least wish me
happy birthday? Or you might be scared of my criticism. Shit I’m not mad at you
for not being in my life since birth. All I’m saying is now would be a good time
to get to know your daughter. Yes it might be a lil bit awkward talking to me
because you don’t know me, but that will all past.

 

However the thing that really got me thinking about this
was having a conversation with my boyfriend. I was talking about how my dad was
getting her for Christmas an(a) iPod, laptop, camera, printer iTunes cards and
anything else she might want (and he got it for her).

 

(Just to let you know I’m not
looking for gifts from this woman because as you can see my dad can most
certainly give me material cosas)

 

So my boyfriend
was saying-

So your dad and
your sister must talk a lot. And I’m like yeah they do!

So he’s like-

Do ya’ll talk a
lot? (he’s talking about me and my biological mother) I’m like no we don’t
at all. I’m not sure why.

He’s like-

Do you like
her? I’m like I have no reason not to like her she’s cool in my book

He’s like-

Oh ok…. I think
that’s messed up how she not trying to put forth an effort to have a mother
daughter relationship with you, but that’s just me I don’t know about you though
that’s what I think about that.

(And I tried to play it off like It really didn’t bother me that me and her
don’t speak but it did and still does)
=/

And that really got me thinking I talk to my sister just
about everyday! And you are a parent/mother that lives with someone that talks
to your daughter everyday and you can’t slip in a hey… how you doing. I agree
with my boyfriend this/that is a problem!.

This chick has got me gone (lustily)

Every since I met her in my weight training class I have always been attracted to her. To the flirting to her physical appearance the chemistry is their. So let me get to the chase I asked her out… on a dat e… Yes I am very much aware that I have a boyfriend. My thing is you only live once so why not chase what you desire…right? So I asked her out on a date she said “What about your boyfriend?” I said you didn’t answer yes or no. Ignoring the total fact of her asking me “what about my boyfriend” question (yes that was smooth but I’m trying to get what I want) and I am anticipating her reply. I really hope it’s in my favor!

(Crown Royal- Jill Scott)

The Softest Lips…Part One

I don’t know what I am getting into.
Even though I have a boyfriend I feel like I’m missing out on things I truly want to do.
This sounds fucked up but I really don’t want to break up with him for any other person and that is my word. But I have realized that I will step out on him to get what I want and still remain with him. Sounds crazy I know and dishonest. It’s just that my mind and body is drawing me to her. Plus it doesn’t help that she is feeling me back. People if you only knew what she does to me she would have you going too (basically she can get it). I am contemplating my decision and I will make a part two of what I am going to do. Until then stay tuned.

Frustrating.. Valentines Day

ugh!!
I tried to order a key chain heart engraved with names on each heart (sounds great right) well!
When I tried to order it the fucking site wanted to act up!

Now I have to go to a store to find something! Which i really do NOT want to do since heart engraved thing is something i REALLY
want to get my bf for Valentines day.


Help Me with New Gift Ideas!!!!

PLEASE!