Ahhh I Can't HIDE!!!

They have my AIM. They have my Myspace. They have my Downelink. They have my Facebook. They have my phone number. They have my everything I have. Damn can people just leave me the fuck alone. Can people take the "HINT" that I do NOT want to talk to them. Can you respect my space?!! Does that mean anything to you..at all? Gosh I mean obviously I must be important to you since you have everything that I have.

Why can't people take the "HINT"?

2nd Best

So i like this girl alot but we are just talking for now. We talk about almost everything and today she was talking about how she still has feelings over her ex and she can't get over her, you know stuff like that. Which im not bothered by at all. It's just the thing that gets me wondering do I over analyses the future with me in her in it and not thinking about what she might want. I think im being a bit selfish me wanting her to myself and not realizing what she wants. I feel like she is living in the now moment which i am too but hers is different. Im a possibility to her. To me she is a for sure thing. In this now moment she wants to fill her emptiness with someone else. Like a fast love when I can be her a ever lasting love. I want to be that someone else! Not just a second best or a possibility.

But only time can tell what will and will not happen. I just hope its in my favor.



-2nd Best

A child trying to GROW UP!!

I'm trying to get ready and be an adult. I feel that my preparation isn't working. I still am a child. I think like a child. Heck I even still play childish games. Im not sure how to get out of this. (Being childish)

But, 

On Jan 12 I will be enlisting in the Military (NAVY!! woot woot) and I don't want to be under qualified for anything. Military is SERIOUS business; and I want it to be an enjoyful experience for me. I just need to grow up.

Play...? No Play for mee!

Okay so yesterday I meet this girl named Play.

I really didn't want to meet her cuz I already knew she wanted to talk to me. And from the jump I already knew I wasn't going like her. But as me being nice I decided to be nice and be like its nothing wrong with having a friend. And being the flirtatious person I'm. I gave her the wrong impression that I like her (shit why'd i do that). I mean she is cute but not what I'm looking for.

 But anyways now she's all on my nutz like damn chick let them go.

I just want me and her to be friends

Religion...(things I think about)

How do you know what to believe what what the bible says is true? Just before I go into this subject, I want to let you know I am a firm believer in Jesus and God no doubt! But it just concerns me that maybe the bible has other things to say other than what we may know. Many books of the bible haven't made the cut to be in the Bible. Just by knowing that myself makes me think of what other things could be in those "not approved" books that might be essential for our self assurance our knowledge of people seeking Jesus?

Hates The Holidays

main reason :

something always bad happens to me

this year the boyfriend is not showing me any attention 

he's not even calling me damn imma be glad when this shit is over

No Communication...(shits on MUTE)

What's an relationship if you don't have communication? Nothing right? Or am I trippin' on something that may not be that big of a deal. You tell me!

I love him like STEAK N SHAKE it never gets old!

I wanna express my feelings for you. It seems like when I do do that very thing I jinxs the one I love and the relationship. Scared of doing that. So ill just write about it in a blog, that you will never see. I hope we are together forever even when we are not. I feel the most comfortable around you. Thats why I'm with you! All I'm saying is that I love you. And I know you do too.

at this point

right now at this stage of my life im not tring to have a relationship juss talking buddies =)

some flow line i juss made up...lol

im playin ten niccas at the same time

n oh yes 

i got your man,

his gurl thinking about me all at the same time!!