Real Life = Feelings Befor Bed

When am I going to feel THE Glory that God has bestowed unto me? I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of these feelings, that I have to shut deep inside. What's the cause of all this? I don't feel like trying, I feel anger and pain, Too much to explain. I just want to be free. Free from me! I want to be ripped out from the inside so that my soul can be free. No more of this glummy bondage, my heart has on me. Let me Soar high until I can't breath the altitude. God help me fly!