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You tell me if I should feel the slightest negative emotion
to this…
So my blood sister found me on Myspace this summer, and I
am happy she did!
And my father and her are developing a beautiful
relationship which I think all fathers/parents should do with there children
even if you don’t know them personality wise or haven’t seen them. It’s just the
fact you the parent/father knowing that you help make something come into this
world that is part of you. Now getting to the real point of this blog my
biological mother not trying to slay her in anyway I’m just saying/wondering do
you have the desire of knowing me? Like how my father is getting to know my
sister your daughter. Do you want anything to do with me? I mean shit. This is
actually hurting me emotionally and I’m a pretty strong person inside n out.
It’s just the fact of you know my number, you know my AIM IM, and you can damn
sure ask my sister how to contact me in other ways such as Myspace & Facebook.
Like damn you have every place where I’m at 99% of the time. So what is the
problem? Why haven’t you taken your time out to chat with me or at least wish me
happy birthday? Or you might be scared of my criticism. Shit I’m not mad at you
for not being in my life since birth. All I’m saying is now would be a good time
to get to know your daughter. Yes it might be a lil bit awkward talking to me
because you don’t know me, but that will all past.
However the thing that really got me thinking about this
was having a conversation with my boyfriend. I was talking about how my dad was
getting her for Christmas an(a) iPod, laptop, camera, printer iTunes cards and
anything else she might want (and he got it for her).
(Just to let you know I’m not
looking for gifts from this woman because as you can see my dad can most
certainly give me material cosas)
So my boyfriend
was saying-
So your dad and
your sister must talk a lot. And I’m like yeah they do!
So he’s like-
Do ya’ll talk a
lot? (he’s talking about me and my biological mother) I’m like no we don’t
at all. I’m not sure why.
He’s like-
Do you like
her? I’m like I have no reason not to like her she’s cool in my book
He’s like-
Oh ok…. I think
that’s messed up how she not trying to put forth an effort to have a mother
daughter relationship with you, but that’s just me I don’t know about you though
that’s what I think about that.
(And I tried to play it off like It really didn’t bother me that me and her
don’t speak but it did and still does)
=/
And that really got me thinking I talk to my sister just
about everyday! And you are a parent/mother that lives with someone that talks
to your daughter everyday and you can’t slip in a hey… how you doing. I agree
with my boyfriend this/that is a problem!.