Omg What the Fuck....

Omg what the fuck is wrong with me. Like really I’m fucking
up. It’s already bad enough that my boyfriend is younger than me. So our
thinking level is one notch different. And my ass started thinking and talking
about how our relationship is going. This guy is all like great :D! (Then he
states his reasons..)

After that he starts’ asking me about if you have a crush
on someone is it cheating. And of course I’m like no its not. (cuz I know my
damn self has crushes on many girls)

Then of course I’m like why do you ask? He’s like he thinks
this white girl (OMG!!


[A1] Not
again) is interesting.

I’m like okay…

Then he’s like you got to meet her. {Just adding on: And he
says this like imam going to find her attractive like wtf no… well maybe idk…?}
(I’m my mind I’m like hellz NO might have to kill the bitch) So I’m like yeah
sure… ( :-/ mhm why not…?)

Then the conversation went on to different subjects

Blah

Blah

Blah… and so on….

Then he says “I don’t like thinking about how’s a
relationship is going because it stays in my head too much and then it just does
not go right.”

(Oh My Fucking Jesus) If I would have just talked about
this with one of my best friends preferably Deron (3^rd on myspace
top) I wouldn’t have this fucking guy thinking about the worst of situations
between me and him.

I’m such an Idiot. I swear I always fucking do something
wrong to cause a trickle of catastrophe in relationships.

Well now all I can do is CONTINUE to pray for a stronger
relationship between me and him (like I do EVERYDAY) because he actually means
the mundo to me! (Despite my wondering eye). ß
That’s a family curse – wondering eye!

Next time I think about shit with me and him imam just keep
my emotions to myself (even though that shit kills me) It’s for the bettering of
our relationship…. What do you think?

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[A1]So
this guy is stuck on this girl he went out with for a long ass time before
me. So he has a thing for white girls… (He just need to stay with Blacks
or Hispanics in my opinion preferably ME!)