Fucking Awesome Day..

It started off rocky, but I prayed alot! So I was in for a great day. For some reason today I was hella hyper! Idk wat wats up with that lol. Then I was due for work.. After school. Yeah I was a bit tired; But I was still hyper so it really didn't matter :D. Ohkay-getting to the BEST PART! I came to work looking a mess because I didn't care what i looked like. I mean If it isn't gnna be anyone cute their then... Imma be whatever! lol. Okay, so around 6:00 I was rolling silver wear..
Andd this cute thuggy guy (he seems nice, and ion even like that for real, for real.. But imma give em' a try for a few..to see how long he gnna last lol!) is smiling and looking at me.. So im like, what? Do he not know I look a mess right now , and acting hella WERID/CRAZY! (in my mind im like I think he just see's this BOOOtah lol..fyi he ainn getting it.. but if he was a girl.. Now that's a different story :D) SO he comes over and he's like
"So wats gud widd the number?"
Im like
"yeah, you can have it."
and I walk away.. I had to think about that.. that's why Iwalked away lol!

but.... Yeah in some weird awkward way that made my day even better than what it was.
Im not hopping something will come out of this (him getting my number) because im not expecting anything.

Another Relationship Lost

Ughh.. I can't say im really disappointed, because I admit it's my fault I let her go. So I just need to deal with it. I miss talking to her though. Ahh.. I think it's about to be that time of the month because im starting to get really sappy.
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But any who.. on the bright side I shopped a lil bit, my hair smells like cherries (accident!), and thats about it.. other than the fact that I found out some information.. Disturbing if i wanna call it that. Idk I still have to get my thoughts together on how I want to phrase it. WWJD ? He would help. lol.. So I will

The Start of this New Year..

I've gotten broken up with. Had a spiritual awakening. I've started to realize what I truly wanted to do with my life and i've found out why i'm here (as in why GOD put me here)... and Im not trying to act like im holy-er than thou because im NOT. I sin just like the next person. And just because I feel passionately about females dsnt mean I can't have a life with Christ. I know im blessed God has shown me so; and I TRULY believe!

Mysteries in it's form

Man wat kinda power does this chick have over me? Something isn't right but I keep coming back. Is it because she is beautiful and hard to say no to? Or is it that I just dnt care and my consciousness doesn't care to see and realize wats going on. They say curiosity killed the cat. I'm Blessed so I believe that my Lord and Savior will protect me.

Unfinn...

Get some green get some green.That's all but dont be mean. Share the green. Be a fean. Its like bad vs. good. Who really knows smoke the green! Enjoy the hearbal bliss. I touch the sky. The air beneath my wings. Yeah im High of the forbiddible hearb of life. the green i mean that people dispise soo deeply. I understand clearly that people die because of the reckless ways of people even if you not using it. they say ist wack. So wat is green then? Good or bad? I have yet to find the answer to that.

No Tittle

Like the one thing that makes me happy I don't even have it anymore. It's crazy when you just feel like you and a person would be soo right for you and they dont want to go that far. Its more to the staory than what im typing but I just dont have the time type it. But damn when it's soo bad that you can't even hang out with them because the person likes you. It's like they are putting me on punnishment or something. The joy is gone and maybe even lost if i can't see her. I only can now just guess of how it would of been. Damn.... Really Thats that slay.... lol... literally. I had to put a joke in there somewhere bc im just too torn up. Damn...

NoOoOoOT Happy.

Damn im soo Miserable in Nc. It's like every time I come back im unhappy and bored out of mind!!! It's nothing down here for me. No relationships that would make me want to stay. It's absolutely nothing that would make me want to stay. I swear after high school im going to take the first flight out of here. You just wouldnt understand the half of it...

Bad Weekend...

This past weekend starting on Friday just was not good! I got super fucked up. Then I found out that one of my friends I call my bro got in a car accident while he was skate boarding. With Tragic injuries with a fractured skull and his brain is bleeding. So I was pretty tore up about that and still am. And on top of that I just lost a cousin like 3weeks ago and I don't want to loose any other people I'm close to. Ad on top of that I have been getting in trouble with every little thing. Like idk WATS my dads deal. Then this weekend I was expressing my feelings to my boyfriend about everything that has been on my mind. I was crying and all it was just a mess! I told him alot of stuff that he was not aware of. But were good now. Since I expressed all my emotions and problems with him I have to get rid of the swag. Which I'm fine with but I'm not sure how I should leave her alone with out it ending an friendship in a bad way. It's also kind of awkward that the old swag knows about her and they are good friends and soo did not know this. So yeah... It's madd awkward. But this helps us become better friends because she's aware of me not having such of Strong feelings for which is good. I found out that one of my co-workers got fired and MIA like no one knows whats up. So uhmm yeah i would like to know what happen to him. This has just been a mess and Kinda Stressed.

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